how are we here again?
today jude was the bravest boy ever. if you are looking for a hero, jude is your boy. the whole crew (nannie, daddie, anesthesiologist, student anesthesiologist, dermatologist, 2 nurses, and some other odd man who is always there) thought he was the bravest. no tears today, not a one.
on the way to the hospital early this morning jude told us he wasn't going to cry today. trev and i just nodded and said "okay, bud" and kind of rolled our eyes, prepared for a long emotional day. we should have known better because if you want to know one thing about my jude is that he is determined (example: after a 30 minute tantrum @ target yesterday over a toy, my mom said to me "you know if he can channel that determination into something good, he will change the world."). jude set his mind on being brave and not crying, and he was. brave as we walked into the familiar hospital, brave as they dosed him to calm, brave as they put him to sleep, brave awaking to strangers, brave as they pulled out his IV, all around bravery. like i said, my hero. whether or not his new "millennium falcon" shirt had anything to do with it, i do not know. jude seems to think so, i mean would han solo cry?
i was thinking today, how many 4 year olds do you know who have gone under GA 13 times? what about grown adults? no one should have to, especially jude. when i voiced this thought today around the anesthesiologist he told me no one should ever have to, its not an ideal experience, and it can be really scary. sometimes i feel guilty about what i subject jude to. is it really necessary? who knows..... most of the time i think it is necessary but as i am walking out of the OR (time after time) i feel like leaving my baby in the arms of a surgeon and a anesthesiologist is not really necessary. the procedures do work, his birthmark is lightening and he has never had any complications from GA. so maybe it is worth it, i just hope jude agrees with me in years down the road.
needless to say, jude is strong and he amazes me, everyday but especially today.
a drugged 4 year old is REALLY hilarious. jude nearly fell off the bed twice, walked into a glass door, fell a couple of times, and said some really funny things. its a good thing he can sleep off the drugs and wake up feeling like himself again.
"..... i can hardly wait, to see you come of age, but i guess we'll both just have to be patient. beautiful, beautiful, beautiful boy."
p.s. i love you, for loving jude.
Look at that gorgeous boy...and those eyelashes??? WOW!! He is the bravest little man and I love him beyond words. XOXO
ReplyDeleteWhat a brave boy!
ReplyDeleteI am laughing mom because that was what I thought too when I saw these pictures! Holy eye lashes batman! Sweet boy. Send love from his St. George family. WE love him much!
ReplyDeleteSO brave and SO handsome!!
ReplyDeleteDo you love target freak outs as much as me?!
He seriously is such a cute boy and I would LOVE to have a pair of those eyelashes. And if you hear another little boy throwing a tantrum at target then that would be mine. Happens ALL the time! You think it would keep me away from the dang store but nice try right?!!
ReplyDeleteSweet boy! Hopefully this is among the VERY last he will ever have to do. Kisses from San Ramon!
ReplyDeleteHe is seriously so cute. I can't believe he didn't cry... what the heck. That is pretty amazing. Nurses have told me about older men that pass out when they have to give blood ha ha. Way to go Jude, and the rest of all of you!!
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