ode to daddies

there are many great men in my life and most of them are fathers. the ones that i love most are of course my own dad, my sweet husband trevan, and last but not least rog. i love that we get to celebrate these men we call fathers once a year.

i love my husband more that anything (he ties with jude). he is the perfect match for me and i didn't know how wonderful of a father he would be. trevan longs for the day that he will have a "daddy's boy" but he does not see the look of love and sheer need that jude gives him. jude adores his dad and trevan deserves it. i am thankful every single day for having trevan in my life. he deals with his crazy wife perfectly.

i love my handsome father mike. he has taught many things in life but my favorite thing he has given me is my sense of humor. he is incredibly silly man but at the same time is so smart and resourceful. he always makes you feel like you are his favorite (i really think i am) and would give you anthing of his, minus his berset bash t-shirt. i love you dad.

this picture pretty much sums up my feelings about rog. roger is a AMAZING father. he his everyone's favorite, including jude. in fact one of jude's first words was "papa". i can't tell you all of the things that this man has sacrificed for his family. he has always put them first and it shows, his children adore him. trevan loves his dad and will not do or buy anything without first consulting rog. he is truly a GREAT man and we all love him. (plus robyn thinks he's hot.)

Taking a Dip

everyone that knows me should know that i love to swim. i am trying to instill that love of water to my son and i think i am doing quite well. today we went swimming (again) with our favorite sidekick brookie and her belly. we also were accompanied by landon and his friend garrett (not pictured). jude had a lot of fun and we are looking to swimming lessons in 2 weeks!

yucky, dirty, stinky boys that i love

i told you he loved tractors.
this is something i did not teach or encourage

oh the joys of being a homeowner...... broken sprinkling systems.

yes mother, 2 popsicles will do.

Zoo Boys

since morgan is at efy and i am dying to get out of the house after last week, terri and i decided to take our babies to the Hogle Zoo.

jude hearts landon

visiting the ghost of the bayou (albino aligator)

man oh man does jude love the choo-choo. here he is cheering it on. the only thing he loves more is tractors.

getting better all the time

i am getting better everyday. i had the week from hell last week, truly. i am pleasantly surprised that i made it through it. my thanks goes out to everyone that helped me out. especially my wonderful husband, he is amazing. poor jude had no mommie last week and had to hang with grammie or nannie everyday. i think he is happy to have me back, even if i am still a little fragile.

what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. right?

Precious Delicious

these are the most delicious cupcakes that i bought at the dreaded wal-mart. terri and i were walking through the bakery and we both decided we needed a treat. she got a doughnut and i got these! when i got them home jude was pretty excited and kept saying "bite", of course i had to share!

this morning while i was on the computer jude found our delicious little treat again!

what a tasty breakfast

dear baby,

i wish you would come back. i never got to tell you i love you. i don't know when you left, i didn't get to say goodbye. i don't know why you left, didn't you know we wanted you? i still feel that you are here sometimes in my heart, but my mind tells me you aren't. you are gone. we were very excited for you to come to us. we were already getting ready even though it was early. your brother jude gave you a kiss the day we found out you were gone, he loved his baby. he would have been a great big brother, you would have loved him. he would have shown you the way. i never will forget you and the short lived joy and excitement you brought to our lives. please tell you other siblings, if they are up there with you, that i would have been a good mom to you. i'll never know if you were a boy or girl but i loved you just they way you were. i wanted you so bad, i love you. why did you leave? what is the lesson we needed to learn? i am not angry, just so heart broken. how do i go on without you? i need you. just one hold or hug or kiss, that would have done. we are all hurting for you. will we ever be ok? i thought you would be with us forever and that i would have time to get to know you. i know we will be together someday forever but not until we can join you in heaven. wait for us, we will come to you, we love you. i love you. please come back to me. i will love you forever sweetest baby of mine. people say that i will get you back but i know i won't because you are gone. you were special and created for us, but too special, you could not stay. you will never know the joy of life and the love of an earthly mother and father. we love you. come back. we will recover but i will never be the same. not without my sweet baby i lost. where did you go? i don't ask why me but why you? he could have taken me and left you. i love you. go to sleep sweet baby and wait until mommie comes to get you, i promise i will come for you. i will protect you and love you for the rest of my life.

i love you forever,

mommie